My fault

My fault
juz read his blog.. feel so bad and guilty.. if not for me.. his marks wont drop.. not for me.. non of this would happen.. i got people calling me to give up.. ask me to concentrate on studies first.. and blah blah blah.. i noe its true.. but.. giving up isnt easy.. though i hav been through once.. but tat time was considered as betrayed.. i m sorry i brought this upon u.. y cant it juz last?? feel like crying after reading tat post.. muz be strong..
he was sick today.. and didn't went to sch.. went to his hse specially juz to give him his homework.. then rush back to sch for dance.. and skipped my lunch.. wy said tat its not worth it for me to do all those stuff for him.. haizz.. silly me right?? huiyi also tell me to give up.. but i still cant let go.. i m too deep inside already.. muz find back my own self.. so what if he appreciates it?? everything is set already.. i cant change anything..
chinese dance also got problem.. haizz.. dun even feel like going to chinese dance anymore.. juz dun hav the courage to face anyone.. its juz my duty.. not tat i want to do so one.. y cant u juz understand.. regretted calling u go..
wy ask me to read her blog.. and i m really touched.. i muz be strong for them.. cause they are always there for me no matter wat happens.. and tat really helps alot.. my problems are increasing.. teachers' day is a curse for me.. tats wat i always thot.. during sec 1.. fall down and disfigured myself.. sec 2.. kanna slap by a guy for a stupid reason.. sec 3?? haizz.. so many bad stuff had already happened.. its getting worse each year..
I thot every fairytale has a beautiful ending?? But y is tat mine juz dun hav a beautiful ending??